Mother Runner

I want to be a runner so bad I can't stand it.  I used to run....back when I was fit.  Seems like many years ago.  Anywho, I want to be a runner again.  I want to be a good example for my daughters.  I want to be the kind of Mom that my kids can say that they want to be like.  I mean, sure, I'm a good Mom.  I am.  But I want to be better.  And I really miss running.  I remember I used to run just for the fun of it and I can't wait to get back to that place.  Enter C25k.  I've heard many people have done the C25k and had great results.  I also thing this may help me get started in the right direction.  So, I'm going to start this evening.  Wish me luck. I want to be a runner so bad I can't stand it.  I used to run....back when I was fit.  Seems like many years ago.  Anywho, I want to be a runner again.  I want to be a good example for my daughters.  I want to be the kind of Mom that my kids can say that they want to be like.  I mean, sure, I'm a good Mom.  I am.  But I want to be better.  And I really miss running.  I remember I used to run just for the fun of it and I can't wait to get back to that place.  Enter C25k.  I've heard many people have done the C25k and had great results.  I also thing this may help me get started in the right direction.  So, I'm going to start this evening.  Wish me luck.

Wow, THAT was UGLY!

I'm not even gonna lie.  Yesterday was UGLY!  Shew!  I started the morning out really good.  Had a good lunch as well.  Then all hell broke loose.  Let's just say it involved chips (which I swear I never eat anyhow...can't remember the last time I had potato chips), 2 Drumstick ice cream cones, a diet Coke, Wendy's and a frozen pizza.  Yep, you read all of that right.  I seriously wasn't even on the wagon....more like using my arms to climb up on it when I completely fell off.  Flat on my face.  I'm not sure, but I think someone or someTHING started up the tractor that was pulling the wagon and took off without me in it.  :-) But this is ok.  Well, not really, but it WILL be ok because I am owning up to it.  I am not making excuses.  I caught myself making excuses, things like, "well, I had a small fry at Wendy's so it was ok to eat 2 pieces of pizza....it's not like I had a large fry..."  You all know what I mean.  Those justifications that we make it ok to binge eat.  Well, today is a new day.  I'm gonna suck it up and move on and not let yesterday define who I am today.  And I'm telling you, if that wagon tries to move, even an inch, I will be prepared today.  I will hang on for dear life, even if I'm dragging behind it.  

Overwhelmed But Trying

Do you ever feel overwhelmed?  I have been feeling so overwhelmed that I just don't even know where to begin to lose weight.  I know that common sense says eat right and exercise but it just
doesn't seem as easy as that.  There are so many diets out there.  You get on facebook and it seems like everyone is wanting you to try their fad diet.  And it works for them too.  They've got their before and after pictures to prove it.  You've got Weight Watchers (which I have done several times and lost weight with but then turn around and gain it back), you got Beach Body, Visalus, etc.  You name it, it's out there.  I even saw a news article about the new OMG diet.  An Author has actually written a book that is aimed towards teens showing them how they can be "skinnier" than their friends.  I have not read this book but what I saw was that it promotes skipping breakfast.  At any rate, the ones that I mentioned above can get very costly.  And as a wife and mother of two, how can anyone afford to buy into the shakes and videos that is required for some of those plans.  And yes, I know, people will say "how can you afford not to?  It's your health".  So, I guess I have to ask myself, why is it so overwhelming?  Can't I just eat normal food, exercise and lose weight without having to pay someone to help me keep accountable?  I am a firm believer in counting calories.  Especially in today's society where serving sizes are outrageous.  For example, we went out to breakfast for Fathers Day.  Both of my daughters, who are 8 and 10, ordered chocolate milk.  The waitress brought both of them out a 16 ounce foam cup of chocolate milk.  16 OUNCES!  I about died.  I asked the waitress to take it back and split it and put it in the small water glasses that they provide.  There would have been no way my daughters would have ate breakfast if they have guzzled down all of that chocolate milk.  We are in a society where bigger and more is better.  So, I do believe in counting calories.  I just don't want to pay as little as 19.00 a month to do it.  I have use My Fitness Pal in the past but not faithfully, but I think this is where I'm headed.  They have a great online support group, a free phone app for when I'm on the go and the site layout is similar to Weight Watchers, as far as the calorie counting and community goes.    Also, I would absolutely love to join a gym, but I live in a very rural area.  I would have to drive at least 40 miles one way to go to a gym, so I am going to figure out a way to make a gym at home.  This, I think, will be the easy part.  So, please bare with me as I get started, once again, on a journey to better health.  It may not be pretty, but at least I will be trying.